tomorrow is the day!!!!

ohmygosh.  i can't believe it's finally almost here!!!

so, change of plans by the way.

my nurse called me today to confirm all the details (because she's off tomorrow & saturday)...i had decided that it would be best for me to wait until saturday because of work tomorrow.  when she called (btw, she's completely beyond awesome), she seemed worried that i wouldn't get the results on saturday for different reasons.  one being that since their office closes at 12, my local lab wouldn't get the results to them in time, plus working with limited saturday staff made her hesitant about being 100% sure i would get my results.  which would then postpone me knowing until monday--UGH!  so, i asked her if it would be ok to change back to tomorrow...going in early to have blood drawn, and then not checking my message until after work.  i know it sounds impossible, but i've waited this long...i can wait thru the work day...i think.

i'm pretty positive i'll cry either way...so i'd rather not be at work when i get the news anyway (who wants the crazy crying girl to fill their prescriptions), and clint can listen to the voice message with me.  it's such a personal message, i'll be better to hear it at home.  on my own couch.  sobbing my eyes out because either 1) after a long 6 years, i will finally get the one thing i've wanted more than anything, or 2) realize i have to keep on keeping on...

either way, i'll post the update tomorrow.  good or bad.  i can't even say how i feel right now.  i know i won't sleep at all tonight!  i'm nervous.  excited.  scared.  hopeful.  still dizzy.  overwhelmed.  stressed.  and somewhat at peace, strangely enough.  :)

thank for, thank you, thank you for your prayers...means more than you all will ever know!!!

~~LLC