...thursday....

well, by now, i'm down to getting thru this wait by days.  all i have to do is get thru thursday now.  it's been a long rough week.  this is terrible.  and i'm not a patient person...when it comes to something i want (which is clearly what God had in mind teaching me thru this whole process).  the worst part is waiting.  not the needles, not getting up at 5 and driving to nashville 500 times, but the wait. 

monday, i had some bleeding (and passed a small clot), and was pretty sure this was over.  i cried for 2 days straight at work.  thank you for those of you, who actually had to witness this awful sight when you came in to pick up your meds, and gave me encouraging words.  i'm not sure how i would've fared those days if it were not for you.  seriously.  i called my nurse and she said to keep the faith, and keep waiting it out until i test.  which now is actually going to be saturday.  i decided it wasn't a good idea to get this news at work, in case it happens to be negative.  plus i'd be a wreck waiting til i got that message, and nobody wants me preparing their medicine in this state!  i can't leave work, b/c we'll be too busy and shorthanded.  since i don't work on saturday, and can sleep in FOR ONCE, i'm going to go to the hospital and have my blood work, come home and wait until the nurse calls me with the news.  she said it shouldn't be any later than 1:00.  i have to have blood work, instead of a regular home pregnancy test because of the hormones injections.  they could give a false negative since they are not out of my system yet.

saturday at 1:00.  or before.  i should know, if thru this terrible week of thinking i lost one or both of the embryos implanted last week, are hanging on for the long haul (or 8.5 months). 

thank you for your extra prayers this week...i really needed them....

~~LLC